The road less traveled...

Being a musician , or an artist, or a designer... We tend to dwell in our own world. How genuine are we outside of our own world? Or how authentic are we when we are in our world? How do we measure the authenticity and the creativity? Do we allow others to judge us by what we produce or by who we are? Who are we in our own world? How do we as musicians, composers, conductors, performers, artists, singers,... how do we open up our world? How much of our world can the world feel or understand? Or would it even be possible for people to understand? It is said that 'a picture paints a thousand words'. Does music sing a thousand songs then? But can music be described as something that "sings"? Or something that we hear? Even by looking at a same picture or painting, everybody interprets it differently. People see it from different aspects and people appreciate it in different ways. What happens when Beethoven's Fifth Symphony is played? Or when Gershwin's Fascina...

Here are some updates since the beginning of May... Set up this blog on the 2 nd of May... I realised I gained 5kg on the 5 th of May... Watched Pete's Dragon on the 9 th of May... Mother's Day was on the 11 th of May... Daddy's birthday was on the 12 th of May... My housemate went back to Malaysia on the 16 th of May... Looked for jobs on the 19 th of May... Went for an interview on the 21st of May... Had a wonderful performance at St.Peter's Church on the 21st of May... Handed in my last assignment and took my last written exam for this term on the 22 nd of May... Got a summer job on the 23rd of May... Had McD for lunch on the 25th of May... (I've not had McD since January...that's 4 months without McD...gosh) My summer holiday has officially begun on the 23rd of May... Come what may... For the rest of the days, I have been busy studying, practising piano, and reading about music therapy. Oh, and not forgetting to watch some Korean dramas in between ;...

Undo... Backspace... Cancel... They are such common features found in this 21st Century especially when we are so depended on electronic gadgets. I was cooking today and I realised that I can't undo an action. I can't just stop cooking half way and throw it away and redo it by starting all over. Same goes for a performance. Or even a sight-reading test. If I'm playing a piece, I am not allowed to re-do or undo my mistakes. By doing so, the whole piece will sound disconnected and in a mess. Wouldn't the mistakes be even more obvious if you were to repeat or re-do or even undo them? What we musicians and performers usually do is to improvise or rather is to 'cover-up'. It's the same in life. I can't undo my mistakes. I can't go back to when I was 8 years old and re-decide on a wrong decision I made then. Life does not allow us to cancel what was wrong nor can we undo a silly mistake. We are sure good in covering up our wrongs. Tell a lie and nobody wil...

This is my support system for the rhythm of life! For all my beloved family members, relatives and lovely friends... Firstly, thank you for everything. Thank you for being who you are and for sheltering me with love. All of you are in my life, giving me precious input , making me a better person and loving me no matter what. I am truly honoured to have you in my life. No man is an island - that's what I came to realize. People who accept me as who I am, who stayed through the thick and thin of my life, who gave me a smile, a hug, a prayer, a word of encouragement , a cup of Starbucks , have Korean food together, took pretty pictures with me, who listens to me, who goes crazy with me, who doesn't mind me being me, who did not abandon me, who knew me from the inside out, who look past my sin and faults, who open their arms widely to receive, who would scold me, who would want to see me happy and want the best for me... Thank you! I love you all. Words are not enough to describe ...

The Road Not Taken (1915) Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth. Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same. And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. Robert Frost

In life, it is such that we often have to make choices. We are free will beings given the authority to choose and make sound judgements. I have chosen a path that not many would choose. It's a road not taken. I've chosen to study music where to some, it may seem absurd. I've chosen to give God everything He has given me and even that may be ridiculous to those who do not understand. Like I said, I am who I am - is by the grace of God. I cannot be who I am without who God is. Through this many years of walking this journey of life, there were many choices I made, paths in which I chose to walk in it, lives in which intertwined with mine... There were times this journey was fun, exciting, convincing, colourful, spirited, passionate, glorious, rejoicing, wonderful, victorious and abounding in every sense. Yet there were also times where this journey was harsh on me, tiring, sorrowful, dark, depressing, deserting, defeating, rotten as if life is eating me up... But the greates...

October ‘07 A big dream in my heart – To everything there is a time and season. A place for it, A beginning and en end. As for dreams, there is no end. As life unfolds its mysteries Our lives remain untold till the end of time. On that day, when all will stand and attest At the time of judgement and creation Life and all its fullness, Depths of beauty and splendor Tales of life unseen, untold, unspoken, unsought, unheard – It will all be revealed. Just as in the beginning When God met man, To show us what LOVE is – It’s the greatest thing you and I have, That is solely from God.